"There they are, the tears are back. I suppose its time for me to stop writing for now.
This is what I am hoping: ............................................................
That I will look back on this post, and laugh at myself, and scoff at the little lame and selfish soul that I was. That I will have so much love and adoration for the new little life that I cant imagine life with out it?!! That I will be so filled with gratitude for a Heavenly Father who "knows me so much better than I know myself"... as the Stephanie this morning just said..... oh to be her again.....
Wow, I break so easily!"
I copied this from the post I wrote the day I found out I was expecting my Whitney! (see below, it is posted) My Whitney! Oh my goodness how we love her! I adore her! I love holding her! I could hold her all day if I could. I snuggle my little cutie in my arms and try to soak in all of her! Her smell, her soft, squishy body. I kiss those little chubby cheeks a hundred times a day! I love her smile, it melts me! She is beyond sweet, she is so content to just be held and loved. I thank Him EVERY single day for her. I am so grateful that He went ahead with His plan for me, even though I was screaming at Him to make it all go away!!!!!!!! It BREAKS my heart to read the words that I wrote that day!!!! This little wish I made that day of how I hoped I would feel really did come true.... times a million though!!!! I do laugh at that girl who knew so little! I am ashamed at how I felt then! I was selfish and so naive as to how much I could love all of these family members he has blessed me with! I am, beyond words, so filled with gratitude to my Heavenly Father "who does know me so much better than i know myself"! This little hope came true. I cant wait to write and explain how it all came to be!!
Steph
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This is so sweet! You're such an awesome mom, Steph. Whitney is so blessed to have YOU!
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